Halloween 2013

So, I'm not really good at participating in things like Halloween. I haven't really done anything for Halloween for such a long time, and I can't really say that I understand the holiday, and usually that's enough to get me out of any activity that requires dressing up. But this year, there was a Percussion Ensemble concert that I really wanted to go to, that just happened to fall on Halloween and of course, costumes were suggested.

I was planning on just going to the concert and not participating in the whole costume thing, but let's just say that I have some friends who...encouraged me to not be that lame :). So after throwing together a costume at the absolute last minute, I went. In costume. And I must say, tonight was a BLAST! And the concert was spectacular too. :)

I think I make a pretty good goddess, don't you?

Tonight kinda proved a point that I've been chewing on for a while. I have never really been someone willing to step out of my little comfort zone in the name of being silly and having fun, in public anyways. I don't think that this part of me will change over night, or even my tendency to kinda shrink back and observe will ever completely go away. However, I wonder what ridiculously fun experiences I've missed out on because I wasn't willing to be a little bit silly in front of people. I can't help but be a little bit sad for all of the good, fun things I probably missed out on because I was so concerned about what other people would think about me. No, not everybody dressed up for the concert tonight, or went to eat dinner in their concerts, and yes, they probably thought that I looked a little silly walking through campus in the rain dressed up like a goddess laughing my butt off with some of my friends, but I would not trade this night for anything in the world. It was so refreshing to just be silly and joyful and to be having so much fun that quite frankly it didn't matter what was going on in other peoples' minds. I think that maybe I need to live my daily life a little more like I did tonight. Participate a little more and worry about what everybody else thinks a little less.