I'm Still Here.

I promise I'm still here. Its just been super super crazy and some things have had to fall to the wayside. I'm sad about it, but really I haven't had much time to focus on anything except for what homework I have to do or what practice I have to go to next. My sincerest apologies.

But anyways. Lately the biggest thing on the "plate" is school. School school school school school. I'm so done with it. 2 weeks to spring break (9 weeks to graduation) and it just could not come soon enough. At this point, I know that my job is to finish well and give everything I have till graduation. I know that. But that doesn't make it any easier. So I'm just struggling through and trying to push and find motivation. And don't even get me started about how I'm supposed to be enjoying senior year and these are supposed to be the "best years of my life." Too much, too much.

So I talked about motivation right? Well I'm trying to like go through and recognize the good points about school, the things I enjoy and don't mind being there for :) So far I've come up with:
- Lacrosse and the girls (its the sport's first year at school and I'm loving it! We're all new and super bad, but its okay, cause we're all bad together)
- Band (sometimes I have a really bad attitude about it, but I really do love the family we've become and the music part is generally cool too)
- Lunches in the help-desk (entertaining to say the least, and sometimes I actually get work done)
- Friends (I was hesitant to put this here because I honestly see my friends more outside of school than I do inside, and we definitely get more quality time outside of it, but they are what make it bearable and I do have some pretty rocking friends!)

Honestly though, what gets me through more than anything else are times of awesome worship like what happened in big church and youth this week. Man it was good. And it never ceases to amaze me how much FUN it is to play worship when its so blatantly obvious that you're in the presence of God. It was soul restoring. Actually this entire weekend was a gift! Between babysitting and chill time with the family and a nice run and that awesome worship it was all that a weekend should be- restful and restorative. And barely a lick of homework got done (until Monday morning that is)

And for your listening pleasure, the youth worship set this week: Children of Light (Kristian Stanfil/ Passion Worship Band), Forever Reign (Hillsong Live), One This Remains (Jesus Culture).